Yes, the moment I've been waiting for for years now... I sent in my scription today! But somehow I'm not feeling like I'm finished yet. At least some sleep to catch up on and Christmas to celebrate before I get the final feedback. Hopefully he'll at least mention if the research is enough to pass with.. That's where I'll celebrate.

For now, I'm so exhausted from the past few days that I'm probably going to catch up on sleeping at least the first whole day of Christmas..This morning I actually woke up, somehow mistaking the sound of my alarm for a table (I know it sounds twisted, that's just the way my head works in halfsleep), and I was sure I should switch the rows and columns because it looked bad.. Yes, scriptionholic much.

I kind of feel like I'm in this vacuum now, it's actually not such a nice feeling.. Insecurity about if the thing I handed in is good enough, already realizing I left so many loose ends and stupid mistakes because of time pressure.. Being deadtired, and having no idea on what to do with all this extra free time till the start of January. And obviously, I turn out to be a researcher, since I've finished this killer paper, and am going to do a research related internship at snelafstuderen.nl 0.o

Yes, I get to do the internship there! I'm soooo looking forward to that:D So much to learn, so many inspiring people:) If only I could already be officially finished with the scription and start working there fulltime. Doing something with my knowledge that will actually be useful to a company, awesome! And finally finishing this seemingly neverending scription. I guess all is achievable if you really want it.

It reminds me of this song dad composed me, Knight of pentacles. It's actually based on this tarot card I pulled 3 days in a row when I was completely lost on what to do with my study. Yes, I believe in stuff like that. There are 78 tarot cards, and you canpull them regularly or upside down, which would mean there are 156 possible ways of pulling a card.. Consider the fact that I pulled the exact same one, in the exact same way for three days in a row, and you'd start believing in it too... Read the description of the card, listen to the song. It's my story:)

And now I'm really going to relax, I just had to get it off my mind:) I also realised today that almost a year has passed since my last end of the year looking back blog, but I'm too tired to write something about that now. So I'll save it for when I'm less tired and more inspired! Good night everyone, and merry Christmas!! I know I'll have a good one this year:)

*Roosbeef - De boerderij