So, I was reading this book:) And when I was bored at work the morning after, my head just started wandering.. Infatuation, funny sounding word by the way. The story made me think of myself, how much brighter the world can seem the moment you fall in love. How quickly it can go, and how invincible it makes you feel. I can do practically anything when I'm in love!

But then I realised I've been feeling that way lately, without any infatuation. Which made me wonder what else could cause this feeling, and how it is that falling in love and whatever other factor it may be can make you feel this way. (Oh dang, judging by the jumps my head makes, I'm starting to turn into a researcher after all..)

About half an hour randomwriting in my diary later, I figured it out. (Yes, it's awesome to just write anything that comes to mind, I should do that more often, since it leads to interesting theories!) Anyway, the way I feel now is caused by the scription coaching place (snelafstuderen.nl) where I get the feeling that I'm valued, have potential, and am very welcome. Isn't that what also happens when you're in love? I think it both has to do with seeing yourself reflected in what others think of you, and that reflection makes you feel great about you! Wait, I just realised that's a psychological theory... The looking-glass self... *click*

As always, I've reinvented the wheel again, lol.. Such a psychologist I am! Though I don't know if the connection between infatuation and being in an environment where you feel valued has ever been made. Probably has, since there are many researchers out there. Still, it's a shame you base the way you feel about yourself on how others see you. The crazy infatuated awesomeness is always there, it's a shame that you need others as your looking-glass before you see it! But as long as we fail to always feel this way by looking at ourselves, it's a good thing there are others who act as that mirror, cause it's an amazing feeling:)


*David Bowick - How to Disappear Completely, Chapter 3