I wonder if its possible to have a studyrelated burnout.. I'm so tired lately, but the more I want to finish this scription, the more I seem to lock up. So I end up having no concentration, but feeling bad about not doing anything 24/7.. Which results in even less concentration.. Even my boss noticed there was something off about me, I'm just generally fuzzy and in a pretty bad mood most of the time, so it makes sense that she saw that..

I just really wonder how I'm ever going to finish this scription if I don't find a way to pick up the pace.. Sure, it'll be finished in 2020 at this speed, but I'd just like to go and get a nice job already, something I can feel good about again, instead of being stuck on a fcking useless scription for over a year now.. Just not really fulfilling, at all.

How much is the diploma worth, and is my freedom really worth all debt I built up while studying? Bet it's thousands of euros by now=\ Plus letting parents down, plus knowing I'm so close.. It's just really hard to go the last 100 meters to the finish if both your legs are broken.. Sure, in the end I could tell everyone I'm persistent, but is that really worth all the trouble? Maybe it's just plain stupidity for trying to get something I don't really value.. I know I'm persistent when I find things important, shouldn't that be enough? I'm only in it for the money, if it wasn't for that huge debt, I'd have quit a year ago.. And now it's even higher than a year ago.. One big bad vicious circle all over again.. And I just can't figure it out..